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[14 Apr 2005|01:37am]
I'm just a crazy guy. Falling for a girl.

And this is me, trying to be more comftorable with that fact.

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[29 Mar 2005|09:04pm]
I just turned off a game and now am going to read. This isn't because of studial obligations. No, I... just am in the mood to read The Wastelands. I haven't felt like this in a while. I LIKE IT.

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Notable Blasphemy [23 Mar 2005|01:03am]
WWJD?Collapse )

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[19 Mar 2005|03:26am]
It's true, you don't realize what you have until it's gone.Collapse )

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[11 Mar 2005|06:12pm]
March 17th
Next Thursday, you all know what it is.

I'm going bowling, all my friends are invited.

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I have made an important decision [08 Mar 2005|01:02pm]
I will lose my virginity to the next non-family member woman that prepares for me waffles.

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Random thought of the day. [07 Mar 2005|01:59am]
Nerf gravity.

This random thought brought to you by: Insanity For when talking to yourself about real stuff just isn't entertaining enough.

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It was a nice two day break [06 Mar 2005|07:25pm]
Friday after noon to Sunday afternoon. Nothing to do but sit down, play games. Now it's back to studying. I guess it's not a bad way to live. In fact, a schedule of non-stop busymaking is somehow enjoyable to me. But, it does get stressful. Leaves me feeling as if I'm under what people call a "crunch." That is, it leaves me feeling pressured for time, regardless of how much time is available to me. Maybe it's just a part of my nature.

Let's go over my schedule for next week, highlighting the important parts. This is more for my sake than for you, the reader, but taking this break to review my upcoming week seems like a good idea.


  • Kapitel 8 Test in German. (studying for this right now, I think I need more flashcards, oy)

  • Clean kitchen (I'm starting a new apartment cleaning schedule)

  • Study for Tuesday exam. I should probably visit the bookmaker's website and look at their review questions for the chapters.


  • First Exam for Psychology of Marital Adjustment

  • Pay cable bill.

  • Clean bathroom

  • Now here's a difficult part. I need to split up the remaining time between these two: Reading for the week for Psychology of Death and Dying & German Homework backlog (running a little behind here)


  • Clean space between settled area (with bed and TV) and kitchen. In deciding the cleaning schedule, I figured this undefined space could constitute a section.

  • Catch up on reading for the week for Psychology of Personality as well as finish last week's reading.

  • Hopefully have time left over to finish up a bit of whatever is left from item 4 on Tuesday.


  • Clean Main room of apartment. This is probably going to be the hardest part. Involves furniture moving for vaccuming.

  • Reading for Psychology of Death and Dying.

  • New homework for German and some minor studying.


  • Clean car. Probably the easiest to do. Well, second to clean kitchen. So, I should probably turn Friday into also a regular laundry day. Get it all done. Not a bad idea.

  • I'll still be running behind a little on the reading for Psych of Death and Dying this week as well as Psych of Personality. So I should finish that up.

I probably should buy some highlighters.

I feel boring just thinking about all this. I like being boring, so that's a good thing.

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[05 Mar 2005|04:58pm]
That's right, blonde chick in the drink isle. I see you staring at me. Looking me up and down. Undressing me with your eyes. I'll have you know I'm not a piece of meat! I'm a human being, with feelings and aspirations. *runs off sobbing*

This journal entry brought to you by Brisk ice tea. THAT'S BRISK, BABY!

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This needs to be preserved for all time [01 Mar 2005|02:01am]
Xoof on the World of Warcraft General Discussion Forums:
Q u o t e:
There are lore problems, but they can be circumvented by saying, "A human thief stole scriptures of the Holy Order and was intercepted by Orc mercenaries. Since then the cult of "Insert name here" have been practicing in the arts of healing and holy smiting, plotting their dominance from the shadows.

It's people like you who unleashed the abomination we all know as "Highlander 2: The Quickening" upon the world...

It's funny because it's true. That movie is so abyssmal.

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[01 Mar 2005|01:53am]
Razael Demron (1:51:28 AM): What are women good for?
Razael Demron (1:51:30 AM): Anything?
Jaron95DX (1:52:10 AM): humping
Jaron95DX (1:52:20 AM): and making men feel like dogs
Razael Demron (1:52:29 AM): That sounds quite useful.
Razael Demron (1:52:31 AM): Hmmm.
Razael Demron (1:52:32 AM): Thanks!
Jaron95DX (1:52:33 AM): they're pretty to look at when you dress em up nice
Jaron95DX (1:52:41 AM): and undress them up nice

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Just who do you think you are [28 Feb 2005|12:13am]
peeking into other people's journals? That's rude! Have you no regard for the privacy of others? That's the problem with your generation, no respect for anyone else.

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[25 Feb 2005|12:42am]
I'm back. Haul out the welcome wagon or I'm going back in, meatbags!

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"I don't want to be lonely, I just want to be alone." - Unknown [21 Feb 2005|10:58pm]
The topic today is two-fold. Being alone and loneliness. I think it is important for us to establish the distinction between the two of these, despite the fact that I believe it to be very well known. When one is alone, they are physically or mentally by themselves. Loneliness is the feeling of sadness that is elicited by being alone.

I mention these because they are recurring themes in my life. Being alone is a situation that I have been experiencing for the entirety of my life in rememberence. And as far as I can see it is a situation that will likely be maintained for the remainder of my life. I do not view this as a bad thing. However, the feeling of loneliness I do view as a bad thing. Loneliness is not so pervasive a thing in my life as being alone is, but that does not mean that it has no effect. This Friday that recently passed I was definitely overcome with a feeling of loneliness. While the feeling of being lonely has left me, that feeling has caused me to, even three days later, go into self reflection upon this subject.

It made me feel weak. It is amazing to me. I can go months at a time, not caring, giving my state of being alone not a single thought. A likely product of it being all I know. Yet I can still be forced into a state of sadness that feels difficult to bear. It has cast doubt upon my self-security. So much so that I have forced myself into social isolation. And by that I mean no internet. Silly as that may seem, it is cutting off my connection to the outside world beyond my school. It is my attempt to reassure myself that I am comfortable with my being alone.

I am breaking this internet blockade to send you this message in a bottle. To let the few who may wonder know that I am okay. I'll be back eventually.

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Well, this is a journal, time to journal things [19 Jan 2005|11:51pm]
Well, my psychology of death and dying looks like it's going to be "the" class for me this semester. Implicate morbidity aside, how people deal with death, both the death of others and the prospect of their own, is a very interesting subject. Alot of personal and interpersonal hardship stems from this as well as a mountain of emotional feelings. My views of myself in regarrd to the subject either show that I know so very little about myself or that I'm not particularly affected by death.

I remember when my cat died. That hurt. I cried.

But, when Evan died, I did not cry. I did not feel much in the way of sadness. Of course, me and Evan wheren't close. He was just an acquiantance from friends of friends and through the local LAN club UNT LanWarriors. I remember sitting at the funeral, just paying attention. Doing my best to pay attention in honor of what little I knew of the young man. What hit me though was Lazarus and Evan's mother. Lazarus, another associate, almost a friend of mine, cried. Him an Evan where fairly close, having attended High School with him. And Evan's mother, she too cried. These inspired in me a sense of sadness.

It is remarkable to me. I have no feelings towards death itself, when it is not someone I directly care about. And I'm not entirely sure how I would feel then. I did cry for my cat, but I can't say for certain that I would cry if my mother died. Or if Pamela died, Keeley, or that one woman that I appear to have a crush on. I care for all these people, most assuradly, but I do not know that I would cry or otherwise feel sadness. But, seeing as my typical emotional state nowadays is a rather numb one, I'm not exactly in a position to make an accurate assessment. I do however know that the sadness of the others who care for these people would indeed touch me and make me sad.

It should indeed be a very interesting class.

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[12 Jul 2004|01:16am]
I am now a council member of GBH. Time to start some recruiting! Anyone know any Bounty Hunters without a guild or looking for a less faction oriented guild?

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[21 Jun 2004|09:59am]
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Make sure you are buried with ice skates for when you die. Hell's frozen over. [14 Jun 2004|02:16am]
Well, I think I just broke some poor woman's heart.


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[08 Jun 2004|12:34am]
Demon Wraith may explode without warning


From Go-Quiz.com

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The voices told me to [08 Jun 2004|12:27am]
1. Go into your LJ's archives.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.

"Remember as you sit around the table this Thanksgiving holiday that it is celebrated by Native Americans as a day of mourning for all of the oppresion visited upon them by the white people."

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